Nauseating

"Of all the toys in the world,

people choose to play with feelings."

It sickens me how some people think that they're the best and so good at everything just because of a little popularity and a pretty face caked in make-up. People with stupid scrutinizing eyes eyeing you as if saying look at this pathetic excuse of a life, what a loser! Sucks to be you! Okay we get it, you have an awesome life with awesome friends and whatnot, but what makes you think other human beings live a pathetic life? What makes you think our life sucks? As far as we know, you might live an exhausting life having to fake your own personality in front of all your fake friends who are just socializing with you for the sake of some of your popularity rubbing off on them, the contains of your branded purse and your shiny black car. But okay, if your life really rocks, here's a little secret! Nobody gives a flying fuck. So what if you're having a good time? We've got other more important stuff to do rather than salivate at your feet and squealing about how jealous we are and wishing that we're you. I don't know where you got the impression that anyone wants to be you, but bitch you're wrong.

I'm not saying this cos i think that i do everything right or i'm the best and wisest person in the world. i'm not. I'm impatient, I get jealous easily, and when i'm in a bad mood, i treat the people closest to me like poo. I throw a fit when i don't get my way, i get angry when i lose a game. I'm fucking spoiled and i don't respect my teachers. That's why most of the time i get what i want, but that doesn't mean my life is better than others'! I have my own problems, and i'm pretty sure people who seem like they're always having the time of their lives have their own problems too. So instead of dwelling on all the bad things going on in your life, try and focus on the good stuff! 

What's so difficult about having a decent conversation without any fucking hidden meanings? If you want something, say it shitbag. Don't get upset by yourself and avoid me out of nowhere. It fucking hurts. Why keep secrets? You think i was gonna get jealous or something? For your information, i don't give a crap what you do or who you talk to, so stop treating me as if i'm a fragile piece of shit. I get goosebumps just thinking about you. Do you really think i liked you so much, i can't handle seeing you talking to someone else? Please just start acting like a normal sane person, can?

Phew! done with the shitty topic. I hope you read this and know who you are. but anyway moving on to the good stuff...

I bought two bunnies today, yay! Haven't got the chance to take a picture of those little cuties, but tomorrow i'll photo the shit out of them! I also didn't know what to name them. It's kinda confusing cos i don't want them to have a people name like Victoria or Evelyn or Catherine or other highly inappropriate names for bunnies. But i also don't want cliche pet names like Fluffy, Bunnie, and stuff. I want it to be cute but not overtly cute like Sniffles or Furball. I'm a complicated person. But aside from that, bunnies are really cute! Too bad they're terrified of Bawynn. It makes me sad that i have to scold her when she plays too rough with the bunnies. Whenever they see her they just sprint and hop like mad, which means i'm gonna have to separate them from Bawynn. They can't be in my room then! The worst thing is that Bawynn seems to be very fond of the bunnies. She even wants to get out of my room just to play with the bunnies cos I placed them right outside my room. So now i'm all alone in my fucking pitch black room cos my mom thinks that i'm already asleep. scoff.

I don't know whether or not to attend school tomorrow. To be honest, i'm getting bored with the whole demonstration thing. Can you people please stop already? Whatever you do, no matter how drastic, will never change the government's decision of raising the price of petroleum or other shit! And you go around like stupid baboons setting fire to car tires and throwing stones around like they're some fucking rubber ball. Just fucking stop for a minute and think with your pea-sized brains and stop all these nonsense cos I'm fucking tired. I wanna go to school and fucking learn something so that I won't turn into a pig.

Vivian's not attending school tomorrow cos she tells her mom that i won't go either. the problem is I just bbm-ed my mom saying that Vivian won't go to school tomorrow and she haven't gave me a response yet, so... mianhabnida Vivian if I end up going to school tomorrow (which i'm not planning to). I don't wanna go to school tomorrow cos i don't think a lot of people are gonna be there. Which means that it will be boring and quiet and I can't stand quiet. Other than that, school sounds good!

Something I've been thinking about since noon: Vampires. On our way to Eureka, Vivian told me that last night she dreamt about me being a vampire and it was legendary! So i began imagining myself as a vampire and surprisingly, i found my vampire self very interesting haha! Actually the only thing i'm interested in is Compulsion. If you watched The Vampire Diaries, you probably know what compulsion is. (and if you don't, you should!) Just imagine what you could do if you possess the compulsion skill. Lovely life! I would really like to be turned into a Vampire when I'm about 20 cos I'll stay 20 forever! Oh wait I should be turned when I'm 21 so I'll be Forever 21 hahahahaha! Get it? Forever 21?!

Ending this post with a big kiss! Smack!

Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.

You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep, because finally reality is better than your dreams.

Pain in the ass

"Forever isn't long at all 

when I'm with you."

i can't even express my deep and meaningful hatred towards my internet connection. I know i might seem or sound like a whiny bitch always complaining about her internet connection, but if you were me, i think you'd understand how much pain i go through when trying to surf the internet. I swear i grow ten years older waiting for the pages to load. Seriously, am I living in the North Pole or something?

For an instance, i would really like it if this fucking modem would at least load a page without the pictures cracking or not showing up or something. Buffering a 4o-minute video takes a longer time than my shower, and believe me, i do not take short showers. My hair's all falling off because of all the stress i get from this moronic modem. 

But alas, enough of the deep talk! My fifth aunt is currently @ Bangkok with her husband on their second honeymoon haha, and she said that the place is marvellous! I remembered going there when i was younger much younger, and the only thing that sticks on my mind from that trip is riding the baby elephants! Whoop! Its big ears kept on flapping and flapping and slapping onto my thighs and oh sweet god it was painful but an amazing experience nonetheless. Mom told me that she really wanted to go there too and I made her promise to take me to Bangkok on the month-long break later in June! Keeping my fingers crossed.

After a long time of not playing tetris battle on Facebook, i guess my skills got a little rusty so when I played it, i was literally guillotined. And since I'm kinda that competitive bitch (in other words kiasu), the feeling of losing is definitely not pleasant. uh. not pleasant at all. so I did what i do best: closing the tab! say whuuuuuuuuut! Cyber high-six cos high-five is not enough for such a magnificent person like moi! (inserting rapid hair-whipping)

Good news among all these muddy events! I'm skipping school tomorrow (again) cos the news said that tomorrow's demonstration is gonna be the biggest slash baddest. Actually that's just an excuse for me to dump school and chill at home, plus i don't give a chicken foot about any of the riots happening around. Additional happiness: there is a great possibility that i will purchase a bunny tomorrow! i'm getting lovely shivers!

i will just end this post right now cos there appears to be a skin irritation on my feet and it sucks and itches like nobody's business.

x

Ending holidays

"You'd never leave where you are,

until you decide where you'd rather be."

Wooh! I haven't been blogging these few days cos my modem does not work and it's pissing the hell out of me. I don't know what exactly happened, but after i smashed it to the ground (yes i did!) and put the bits and pieces back together, surprisingly it worked! presenting a cyber hula dance for you right now cos i'm ecstatic!

As you may or may not know, our school is having a week-long term break after 3 crazy months of stupid lessons. Guess what, demo is going on all around Medan and they said that it's really dangerous and noisy out there. As if that's not enough, the Governor's house is right beside our school so dum dum dum...

Extended Holiday!

The holidays were extended for two days, hence my lounging around at home with nothing to do. Actually the official extended holiday is only for a day, which is yesterday (does that makes sense?) but only 5 people showed up to school this morning. The news said that today's demonstration is gonna be twice as bad as yesterday's, so i don't understand why the hell they'd go to school. scoff.

And as for me, after a Monday full of America's Next Top Model, I was actually out of movies or tv shows to watch! so when mom asked me to join her to go to Siantar -- my mom's hometown, i thought what the hell, i've got nothing to do at home anyway, so let's just go to siantar! but mom forgot to wake me up this morning, so she went by herself and i found myself alone at home (with kakaks of course) when i woke up. Re-watched America's Next Top Model Cycle 15.

Cleaned my horrible-looking nail polish that i got from O.P.I in Cambridge. Swear on the dead turtles that i'll never ever ever ever go there again. After i cleaned them off my nails look kind of dead or something so i covered 'em up with another layer of nail polish! They actually look really great if they weren't applied to my nails. My hands are rough and calloused so i guess the soft colors don't suit me? The brand is Love & Beauty by Forever 21 -- my favorite store of all time.

I finally finished that stupid English holiday essay! The reason i procrastinate the whole week is cos i feel nauseous whenever i think about English. Seriously, I've never hated English this much, and it's all because of a sampah person with sampah face that spews out sampah words in forms of yelling and gives sampah grades. GO AND ROT AT SAMPAH HELL, WOMAN. But still, i have 3 more pieces of news articles waiting to be summarized, but i can't even make myself give a single damn so yeah, that's gonna have to wait.

had an amazing meal with mom and dad, i'm starting to get used to food being stuck on my braces now. So to keep the food from being stuck, i always gargle after eating. it's gross yeah i know, but it's better than having bits of food stuck between your teeth, right?..............right.

currently planning to get a rabbit bunny! 

ciao!

x

Super Sunny

"If you want the rainbow,

you gotta put up with the rain."

-Dolly Parton

annyonghaseo loves!
went to Sun Plaza today with Delfina, Novie and Vani and it was fun fun fun fun. it'd be more fun if Claudia and Elaine were there. i've lost count of how long we've not been hanging out together as a complete six! anyway, we met up at Starbucks and I fina-fucking-lly got my green tea frappe! it tastes freaking delicious I think i'm gonna make a commercial for it. Like drinking it and AAAHHHH and wave my hair around and smile

but let's cut the crappy dream. after i got my glass of green heaven, we made our exit from starbucks and went to find a restaurant to fill our stomachs with some delicacies! actually we wanted to eat at Dome, but... hm. so we settled down at Excelso, and I ate a big glass of ice cream that has a weird name and a bucket of fries and fried dishes. it was kinda good, but I can't finish it all. Scumbag greedy hungry stomach makes me order so much food and can't even finish it all. Vani needs to go to the toilet, but all the toilets are like freaking crowded so we went to Sogo's toilet. The one near the bra stalls lololol and it's clean and hygienic and not smelly, unlike the ones outside. Should go to this toilet next time.

then!!! as usual, we walked around and around and around and around and oh my god i got blisters on my feet! i hope all that walking makes me lose weight. after getting tired like crap, we decided to try Teddy Coffee cos all the mugs and plates look really nice and cute! I ordered "Teddy Kiss", and to be honest it was quite good! and omg something hilarious happened. you know how waiters usually say the name of your food when they serve it? well, Delfina ordered "Apple Crumble" but the abang said "Apple Crap". LOLOLOL FUNNY RIGHT?!?!.....right.

We walked around again, and nothing much after that, except we always meet this girl!!! with her friends!!! and she was wearing like "holey" clothes so we name her Slutty. Her friends who have fucking long eyeliners were juling-ing us and we were juling-ing them and the whole situation is just so funnily messed up! when we entered starbucks (again, this time plus nigel, vincent and philip) they got up from their seats and disappeared. way to go!

a bunch of trolling by Novie after that, and Nigel's car arrived. Novie and Vincent went with him, so only Delfina, Vani and me are left. Dad's not picking me up yet, but Delfina's car arrived and Vani needs to go with him. They offered me to join them and go to Del's house so that i won't be a #foreveralone in sun by myself.

Happy belated One M0nz Delfina and d3Dem0nz!!!


hahaha I was in delfina's room and she wanted to skype with her boyfriend. Vani and I disturbed them by making sssssssssss sound and laughing and Delfina turned off the video cos she was in a haram state. Vani held her hand and i turned on the video but... before the fun began Dad had arrived :( so i need to go home.

now i'm tired as hell and my feet is hurting, but today's a happy day!





OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!
Key's teaser is out, and gooooosshhh i can't stop swooning over him. So far, I only liked Key and Onew's teaser cos they're like so un-pervy and adorable! although they also do half-naked poses, they only show bare shoulders.

Here's Onew's:

My favorite. Look at him being all sorts of gooey and cute! I just wanna pinch his cheeks and hug him to death.

 and here's Sexy Key's:

ooh look at that. my fave cos this looks so tempting and he's just plain flawless.

why are they such eyecandies?! why can't we have these kinds of guys in Medan? or better, at school?

x

March-athon + Happy B-day SH

 "Whatever you do,

do it good."

I consumed more food than 3 giant elephants.

i am kind of regretting it right now cos i feel so so so bloated! like i'm filled with air! and my face looks like it's inflated! i bet i gained at least 2-3 kgs today. here's how i recall i'd spent the day:

ate at grandma's home before going to Eureka for A-Maths tuition. I slept for a night there cos mom and dad's not home pfft. After tuition, fetched Elaine from Victor and sent Vivian to school for bimbel! We skipped bimbel and went to Vani's house and...

Indomie Marathon!!!

Elaine, Vani, Novie and I just wolfed down 10 fucking packets of Indomie and big big packets of snacks. We've been waiting for this for a long time! Oh god why... but the noodles are delicious and who am i to complain hoho

at approx. 1 p.m, Claudia, Vincent, and Widodo also arrived there. we drank coconut water (ohgoditwasdelicious) and by then i already felt really full. Then we all kinda cramped in Vani's car and I can't breathe cos i'm too full and tbh I was squeezed but okay. We just drove around and around and around and finally someone wanted to eat KFC so we bought fries and soda yummmmm


highlight of the day: we went to look at dogs in home sweet home! the puppies were like the most. adorable. things. ever. and they sold a baby maltzu (i don't know what that is, i just made that shit up but the puppy is a combination of Maltese and Shih tzu) for 10 million rupiah!!! IKR, what the hell! although it's really cute and white and squeal-deserving, it's not even a pure breed and it's even more expensive than a pure maltese or shih tzu, and that's saying much cos those breeds are expensive too. hmm i wonder if anyone'll ever buy that puppy...


they also sold a lot of other puppies like Pomeranian  and Yorkshire Terrier. They're all just so adorable and when they see us come in they began barking like crazy, probably asking to be released from their cages. but then the auntie shouted at them and they suddenly silenced. i had to hold back my laughter cos the whole situation is just so funny! it's like the dogs are in school and causing riot and when the teacher shouts they just quieten down hehe anyway they were cute. one particular Pomeranian caught my eye cos it was so cute!!! but the auntie said that it wasn't for sale :( but even if it was on sale, i wouldn't ever buy it cos i still have Bawynn hoho.

By the way,
Happy Birthday U-Kiss' Shin Soohyun!
생일축하해!

although you're my least favorite member in U-Kiss because of your horseface (Soohyunizers or whatever it is please don't be offended,) I will still wish you a happy birthday just because you're a part of U-kiss hehe. Say hi to Kiseop for me!


and why am I writing this as if anyone's reading my blog? hm

i don't really wanna make this post any more retarded and boring as it is so bye! how's your satnite? ;)

I hate how chocolate immediately melts on my fingers... I mean... Am I that hot?!


lolololol isn't that just plain funny??!?!?!?! got it from twitter @GirlSpeaking and if you're wondering, i didn't follow that account. somebody retweeted it foooh

x

Saeng il-chukka Miss E! + happy anniversary!

"Pour yourself a drink,

put on some lipstick,

and pull yourself together."

-Elizabeth Taylor

Happy 33rd birthday Ms. Eileen!
no actually her birthday was on Saturday, but we only celebrated it today. Feeling like I should be her gold student cos I gave her two birthday surprises! Along with Claudia, Elaine and Vanessa of course hehe. but unfortunately Claudia did not join Miss Eileen's second birthday celebration. Participating in the surprise was a lot of fun!!! and i laughed till i almost passed out.


our plan was to annoy her to death, so Novie and Vincent pretended to fight- and i must say, Novie's acting was so damn good! Miss Eileen didn't suspect that the fight was fake cos there were screaming shouting banging and all those stuff. To sum it all up in one word, it was simply EPIC!!! then she asked all of us to gather at the canteen. While she was not noticing, on the count of three all of us- and i mean all of us started running for our lives and ohmygod you should've been there cos it was the effin coolest thing that happened on March (so far). As i was running in front, i looked back- and what i saw made me burst into laughter. I laughed so hard, tears came out of my eye. Everyone was like running and laughing and screaming i'm sure the whole school could hear us!!! haha!!!

then when we entered the building from the main entrance we grew quieter so that we wouldn't annoy miss sylvia or sth. scared later she will come and cockblock our plan. the "surprise" plan would've worked purrrrrfectly if only they weren't so scared and so damn slow! it took so much time lighting up the candles on the cake and cos miss Eileen is so kaypoh, she heard us and came to check. we were at the area under the stairs near the library and when her footsteps click clack click clack  were heard, i was like "SI LOH MISS EILEEN LAI LIAU KHAME LA KHAME!!!!" and just nagging at them non-stop. sorry if i annoyed any of u? :)

after that came the best part: we sang the happy birthday song so loudly i swore i could feel the walls shake lol. in your face, miss Jane! that's for always shouting at us whenever we made a little noise! we continued singing and clapping and ohmygod i could imagine how mad all the teachers must be... not that any of us gave a damn. then we confessed to her that everything we did today- from Vivian switching the lights on and off, me singing, Vania going to the toilet without her permission (this is new!!!) and Novie and Vincent's fight, was all fake/acting. she told us that she was relieved the Blakers' behaviour wasn't this bad. of course!!! we are angels sent from above to cheer her life up puhaha!

this photo is taken using Elaine's polaroid @ the first cupcake surprise:

yay for low quality picture -.-

left to right: Vanessa, Claudia, Miss Eileen, moi, Elaine (names are clickable!!!)
notice the cupcakes! made by four of us (mostly Vanessa, but hey!!! we helped too!!! a bit)

this wasn't much of a surprise, we just went to the teacher's room holding the tray of cupcakes and sang happy birthday! and took pictures. Miss Eileen asked each of us to take one cupcake and she shared the rest of them with the teachers. BUT OF COURSE SHE ATE TOO!!! and hey! they said it was delicious!!! so much win!!!

yay for blurry class pictures!

why must everything be so delicious right when i want to lose weight???

i was actually planning to skip dinner tonight cos i'm feeling more and more bloated say after day, but mom decides tonight's a good time to cook all my favorite food: Indomie, Pisang goreng, and chai pau. (well she bought the chai pau, but still) so who am i to resist? come to mama!!!
plus, drank the best hot choco ever:

ummmmm yummmmmm. should be worrying about the numbers on my weighing scale but right now i don't care hehe. right now.


TODAY IS KICAPPIE'S ANNIVERSARY!!!
actually I met kiseop (and ukiss) on the 4th of March 2011, but that doesn't count cos it was night time and dark, so i can't see his face properly. exactly one year ago, i attended U-Kiss' showcase plus fanmeet in Mikie Holiday! i still kept the ticket:

i feel guilty now that i don't even keep up with their news/ new songs anymore sobs but i still love you Kiseop! you can have faith in me baby!
truthfully, i really missed U-Kiss. last night i was listening to Shut Up and 0330 and i realised that i'm being such a bad kissme! but anyway i can't actually call myself a kissme anymore cos i only like kiseop, not u-kiss. I can't seem to change my bias!!! what is kiseop so handsome for anyway? and he is like the squishiest person everrrrr and he he he he is so perfect and his smile...

it is raining heavily. I do not like rain. therefore i am going to sleep early so that i would not need to listen to the disturbing noises made by the rain. i shall have a good dream tonight. good night.

x